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i must be emo lyrics

lian
lian Jun 29, 2007

i was pretty bored so i decided to post this lol

 

 

 

Dear diary,

mood; Apathetic

my life is spiraling downwards,
I could'nt get enough money to go to the 'blood fed romance' and 'Suffocate me dry' concert.
it sucks cause they play some of my favourite songs, like 'Stab my heart coz i love you' and 'Rip apart my soul' and of course 'Stab me rip stab stab.'
And it doesn't help that I couldn't get my hair to do that flippy thingy either,
like that guy from that band can do.
Some days.....

I'm an Emo kid,
non conformist as can be,
you'd be non conformist to if you looked just like me.
I have paint on my nails and make-up on my face.
I'm almost Emo enough to start shaving my legs.
Coz i feel real deep when I'm dressing in drag,
Some call it 'freedom of expression' most just call me a fag.
Coz our dudes look like chicks and our chicks look like dykes, because Emo is one step below transvestite.

[chorus]
Stop my breathing and slit my throat,
I must be Emo.
I don't jump around when I go to shows,
I must be emo.

I'm dark, insensitive with low self esteem,
the way i dress makes everyday feel like halloween.
I have no real problems but i like to make believe,
I stole my sisters mascara so I'm grounded for a week.
Sulking and writing poetry are my hobbies,
I can't get through a Hawthorne heights album without sobbing.
Girls keep breaking up with me, it isn't any fun,
they say they already have a pussy, they don't need another one.

[chorus]

 
Dye my hair and polish on my toes,
I must be Emo
I play guitar and write suicide notes,
I must be Emo

My life is just a black abeyss,
you know, it's so dark and it's suffocating me.
Grabbing hold of me and tightening it's grip, tighter than a pair of my little sisters jeans, which look great on me by the way.

 
When i get depressed i cut my wrists in every direction,
hearig songs 'bout getting dumped give me an erection.
I write in a live journal and wear thick rim glasses,
i tell my friends i bleed black and cry during classes.
I'm just a bad, cheap imatation of God,
You can read me Catcher in the Rye, and watch me jack off.
I wear skin tight clothes,
while hating my life.
If i said i liked girls,
I'd only be half right.

I look like I'm dead and dress like a homo,
I must be emo
Screw XBOX I play old school Nintendo,
I must be emo
I like to whine and hate my parentals,
I must be emo
Me and my friends all look like clones,
I must be emo

My parents just don't get me you know. They think I'm gay just because they saw me kiss a guy. Well, a couple of guys. But I mean, it's the 2000s. Can't 2-or 4-dudes make-out with each other without being gay. I mean, chicks dig that kind of thing anyways. I don't know diary, sometimes I think you're the only one that gets me, you're my best friend. . . . I feel like tacos

Suicidal Thoughts

lian
lian Jun 29, 2007

These thoughts fill my head and taunt my body

Blades all around me

Flashing images flicker in and out of sight

The redness of my blood

The shiny silver of the blade

A blackout from the pain



Visions of my life…

My life at the hands of a blade

Forced by the hatred of my peers and others around me

Thoughts of how my life is but also how it could be

Visions of my past and how many things I now regret

My past haunts my mind, body, and soul.



The things I regret now is what haunts me

The sight of my own blood makes me weak

You'd think I'd be used to it by now

But there's just something different about it now

It's so dark, and so much blood

My life is fading, my last breath is coming, and the end is near.

*pause*

*exhales*

Billie Joe

lian
lian Aug 11, 2006

This is a poem that i wrote back then and it's called Billie Joe so here it is:

Billie  is so sweet
Billie is so neat
everytime i see billie...
i jump to my feet!!!

about me

lian
lian Jul 31, 2006

Hey! My Name is Lian (LEE ANN)

and I live in Soledad,CA. I'm a PINAY!, but sadly i never been to the Philippines :'(

well anyways I'm a 14 years,I'm going to be freshman very soon.

During my spare time I love to write poetry!!! I Love poetry because I can expess my feelings.

Other things enjoy is play sports,playing the flute and the piano,and music. Music is my Life!!!!

I love listening to Paramore (as you can see),Fall out Boy,Panic! at the Disco,Lost Prophet, From First to Last,AFI,Avenge Sevenfold, ,Family Force 5,Taking Back Sunday,My Chemical Romance,Red Jumpsuit Appratus,All-American Rejects,Saosin,Halifax,and many more!

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lian (more info)
  • Member Since: 2006-05-31
  • Relationship Status: swinging
  • Orientation: Straight
  • Religion: Catholic
  • Drink: No
  • Smoke: No
  • Children: I Don't Want Kids
  • Education: High School
  • Occupation: Ninja

About Me:

Well....I'm Pinay and Proud of it.
I love writting poetry,short stories,etc
I love in Soledad!!! (witch is a cool town)
I go to main street middle school
my bff are juby,areli,mariam,luvy,mayline,and many more!

Interests:

iam lian iam into alot of stuff like skating. iam into fun stuff. i like hanging out with my finends.

Favorite Music:

PARAMORE♥, fall out boy, panic! at the disco, green day, afi, the red jumpsuit apparatus, silverstein, plain white t's, my chemical romance, from first to last, the academy is..., action action, june, silverstein, chiodos, lovehatehero, underoath, and many more

Favorite Movies:

Lords of Dogtown, Detroit Rock City, Jackass the movie, and Clerks2

Favorite TV Shows:

fuse, south park, one tree hill, and degrassi

Favorite Books:

i don't know how to read.............